The January of 2008

it's so hard for accepting reality of something happens in this unfair world.,.much bad things happen without a good reason, Surely i can against my destiny . fully aware that i act like a dude for accepted anything without any resistance.. Yeahh...WHo's care of ur heart ?? Hell, this is real world..real concept.. Real society are tend to changin and educated people in other society act& behave& Speak & Think as them.. if u'r different that means u'r not fit w them..
Life is so suck ,Others alweiz utilize ur weakness to demolish you. this is kind PoLitic of Life.

AS i alweiz seein and feelin the best in both of you in the past, .now i realise i was "BIG WRONG. No one can understand my feelin, my heart is the best place to loadin , feel the sickness deep into my memories.. treating others usin this way is like implant dilema on heart.

even i can act like i was okay whereas i was injured,
even i can smile whereas my heart is cryin out loud
even i can cover situation since like nothin happens ,
even i said to myself " stop cryin .. Stop cryin .. but in the other hand my tears can't stop.
i can't lied myself that my heart was really really sick.. eventhough i had cried whole week that also can't rebuilt me back..

for sure, you will never understand !! cause both of you are too selfish , i'm the foolish one....i'm the only one who hold the sickness in the bottom of my heart. i'm learnin some life lessons reflecting from this bunch of medanese people..indeed from this relationship i learn what it means to be a better one...

So that i have to keep praying and counting on my blessing . There are really times in a human life that one must experience being left in the corner and just like being hanged.
Solutions comes when we dare to face what has been the center of the problems with a clear head & big heart.

WELL, Past is alweiz Past...Do erase every bad memories inside my mind .. from the experience above we can learn which is good n which one is bad,. within of all , you will never step forward...Well, For Sure Let's start a new beginin , Dad sent me to malay for one week to have a medical checkup..My whole body system is Okay...But i had a small surgery on my left legs..cause doctor said ," There was a small trace of abscess,it's cann't dissappear by itself and it's better to remove it by surgery.

For this last several days,i brought Our New Honda CRV to service at IDK2 , i know some mechanic so well there...so in that time i checked in my car..one of them told me," Nov, Mana Jazz lu ? uda Wktu nya service mesin,,,Kapan bawa kemari ??!! Ntar MoGok lor... AND.....Because of his Shiettt..Mouth , Yesterday Mornink when i hurry up to college,. My car couldn't turn on..Starter was Freak...Oh HELL?>>>>>...So for the whole dayz,i kept stayed at home 'n waiting the mechanic people come to my place & refixed it to me...

Nothing To Do in this full month, keep come in 'n come out college to Do my thesis..
I still pray for god to bless me for everythin ...Hope Luck is around Me..